I'm losing hopes, yes I am.

But it's okay, the lower the hope, the lesser the disappointment I will feel.

11:11 I made a wish just now!

I HATE THE NIGHT NOW.

I should be happy, I know.

Yet, I'm feeling rather miserable when the night arrive.

And I hate the me now.

Out of the blue, I thought of him today. I thought about how is he, is he doing fine and blah blah blah. I kept my feelings to myself, but deep down I know I do miss him.
But it is the past, I missed my chance, he had moved on and I had moved on too.

There is people asking me, why are you carrying a torch to someone you don't know?

This type of questions questioned me about my feelings for him. Is it something real, or because I just want to live in my own bloody world? It would make me think whether my feeling for him are unreal. Those questions really sucks. Do you really need to know that person well to fall for him? Do we needs reasons to fall for that particular person?

I always thought that there are no reasons in liking particular someone. I thought it was the first feeling you have for him. And when those feeling come, you will feel it instantly.

Maybe that is some bullshit fairytale theory.

:( I wish to know the answer too.

I am studying studying studying now.

And it's sucks.

I REALLY WANTED TO DO IT.

I feeeeeeel like shit today.

I got face problem today.

I cannot believe that it can affect me so much.

I feel that my effort had went down the drain.

I'm mentally tired.

Maybe, I should just give up.

Can you feeeeeel my heartbeat?

Today, I finally took all my courage up to speak to you.

And yay!

(: Smiling all the way homeeeeeeeeee.

I must be mad.

Guess I'm wishing my life away with these things I'll never say.

The pieces of my heart is waiting for you.

It's been ages since I updated my blog. I'm freaking lazy and I do not have the mood to post anything.

But today I will be updating, yay, when I'm suppose to be doing my tutorials. I will do after this post, yeah.

Hmmm, lots of things happened, where should I start from, I do not know too.

Sometime, I can't help but to think life is not as simple as what I thought.

Why didn't I learn my lesson ever since the last time, not to fall for anyone that you don't know at all, it'll hurt only yourself, but still, I made this mistake, yet again.

I'm a stubborn girl, but I will stop falling deeper because up to now, it's seem that I'll be hurting myself yet again. I'm tired of loving one that wouldn't return my love, why am I always the unlucky one? Why am I always falling for the wrong person, I must be blind or what. :(

I'm sure I'm blind, hahah.

Side-tracked to youtube, damn it. I'm going to do my tutorial alr, hope so.

That's this song that are so meant for me now. My feelings, everything.

These Things I'll Never Say- Avril Lavigne

It don't do me any good, i't just a waste of time.

What use is it to you, what's on my mind.

If anin't coming out, we're not going anywhere.

So, why can't I just tell you that I care,

Because I'm feeling nervous, trying to be perfect.

Because I know you are worth it.

I will stop here, will update again soon.

(:

I'm smiling but the tears are falling.