HEHEHEH.

School had started, with the results coming back.

HAI, this is the result of not working hard.

I can only say that my result keep going down down down like mad, I'm going to start study real hard alr. No way my GPA is to go down, it is going to be up.

Before I met him, I always choose to love than to be loved.

And it always ended up with me having a broken heart.

After a few times of this experience, I choose to run away from relationships.

But he kind of made me change my mindset. The feeling of being loved can be wonderful too, but still, sometime you will worry that you will hurt him at the end of the day.

But running away isn't a solution. Everyone deserves a chance, I deserves a chance to find true love too.

I don't want to be like what my brother says,

he told me this " JIE, I think you 80 years old, the heart also won't open, TSK"  Hahahah, I will prove him wrong.

Finally, I can bring myself to post with some happiness feeling.

Heheheheee.

I feel like a retard nowadays!

And lightning don't strike the same place twice.

When you look back, you will see that we had missed out lots of chances and the worst thing is when you miss your chance, you will not be able to catch it back.

Yes, I'm back happier, but sometime my mind will go haywire.
Hahahah. Well, time will heal everything, I believe.

I'm enjoying swimming every now and then. Firstly, keep me in shape. Secondly, make me forget about everything and just swim. Lastly, my tanned skin (Y)

WHY CAN'T MY HEART BE OPEN, WHERE IS THE DAMN KEY.
I NEED TO FIND IT.
Im afraid of hurting you, so I stay a distance from you.
Im afraid to fall and get left behind again.
Im a coward, I know.

XOXO, nights.

I have tried to forget, get you out of my head but the memories won't fade.
I can run and hide from this feeling inside but the pain won't go away.

Your words put a smile on my face.

I'm waiting for you, here.

WILL BE GOING OFF FOR 4 DAYS, DON'T MISS ME BUT I WILL MISS YOU.

MUHAHAHA.

Zooooo trip was fun with them! Although I'm not feeling that well, damn it. But still enjoyed it.

THE SAD PART IS I BOUGHT MY POLAROID CAMERA WITHOUT TAKING ANY.

T_T

Hmmm, looking forward to picnic, sentosa and baking session when I'm backkkkkkkkkkk. And also project that needed to be finish up must be done by next week.

I will come back and start afresh, I promise,

XOXOXOXO.

Im leaving the past behind, once again.

It's getting better, with the support of my girls.

I appreciate their long and naggy messages, their patient toward me as I am a very stubborn person!

Thanks, GIRLS. I love you all, so cheesy! Hahah.

Hmmmm, exams are over, holiday came at last, time is passing so fast.

I can't catch up with it. When I got nothing to do, I will think of the future, what am I going to do when I'm out of poly? Pursue my degree which means oversea study? Or just with a diploma and just go and start working? And when I start to think about all this problem, I will feeel so frustrated. Daddy says it's normal to feeel lost and he also told me that he was like this when he is young. Hahah.

I shall decide later on, the thing to do now is to keep up my gpa but I think this sem, I will do badly for my papers!

SIGH, I must buck up already! :(

Tmr, will be zoo with the girls! I'm excited, to see the animals! It had been a year plus since I last went to the zooo, with Chloe and Yiwei. Hope it doesn't rain like the last time I went if not I will @#$#@!#$.

Then wednesday, I will be taking a breakkkkkk, from busy lifestyle and go into vacation mood.

Forget the saddness, and come back fresh, with no more pain.

I'm looking forward to the new me, are you all too?

:) But please don't miss me! I don't want to sneeze all the time there.

I'm not ready for anything, I know. I'm a coward, really.

Because of you.

Sometime, I wanted to move on.

Sometime, I felt that I can't, something is pulling me back.

I don't know what is pulling me back.

I know you are not coming back anymore.

So what's exactly is the problem?

I want to know too.

Love seem far away.

I'm stepping out of it, because im always friends with sorrow.

I think I have deserted my heart somewhere on the way, because I don't want feel the pain ever.

Stop coming back and think you can undone everything you had done.

I do not wish to hurt, really.

Omg! Five papers to study for, I really like dying manzxzx!

Tsk, I'm really going to start study after this post, really!

After the five papers, Im going to enjoy myself to the max, yay!

I can't wait for the holiday to comeeeeeeeeeee.

All this studying really tiring me out :(

I feel so old, I want to go out and play.

I shall end here.

BYE.

0 DOWN, 5 MORE TO GO.

I have got no courage to love.

我是喜欢你的，但你不会在乎吧。