My actions are just helping me to escape from the reality.
Who is going to help me get back to the right track of life.
I wonder.
Goodnight, People.
Emotionally Tired,
Brenda.
"A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty."
Friday, October 30, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
PARK JAEBEOM ^^
OMG. I MUST POST TODAY.
PARK JAEBEOM APPEARED IN MY DREAM LAST NIGHT.
OMG OMG OMG. No wonder, I'm feeling so great today. Hahahah.
Jaebeom, you made my day.
But it is because I missed you too much.
I hope you consider coming back as 2pm leader.
:( Saranghae, Jaebeom.
Lovessssssss,
Brenda.
PARK JAEBEOM APPEARED IN MY DREAM LAST NIGHT.
OMG OMG OMG. No wonder, I'm feeling so great today. Hahahah.
Jaebeom, you made my day.
But it is because I missed you too much.
I hope you consider coming back as 2pm leader.
:( Saranghae, Jaebeom.
Lovessssssss,
Brenda.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I can't feel anything, anymore.
Let start with the post with a song I'm listening to now.
I love Lee Seung Gi.
Listening to him singing Will you marry me. Super super super melt my heart.
Everytime when I hear this song, my tears will be like falling down. The lyrics are so super sincere. (: But the thing is I don't believe in forever. Do you think there will be forever? Hah. Love him, when will find another him? Hah. I want to fall in love. ^^
Another song that I personally like by him.
I think it suit my mood more. Lol.
The lyrics again are super niceeeeeee. His voiceeeeeeee. *sigh* I’m okay, I’ll be. It is not the first, second or third time alr, it’s alright.
Love the lie lie lie lie part, he’s gorgeous in the music video uh.
(:
Hmmm, school sucks. I hate school but I still need to go to school. I hope the long holiday will be here again. I’m waiting patiently. This semester modules are okay but the lecturer cannot make it. Some of them , speak too fast, some speak unclearly, omg want to listen also cannot really understand. And also school is not as fun as last semester, it’s seem to be lacking of something. Like the class have no bonding anymore, that’s what I felt. *Sigh* It’s alright, I’m sure there is many activities coming up soooon. So let wait and seeeee.
Oh ya, my birthday had passssed. I’m seventeeeeeeeeeen. Hehehe. ^^ But I still prefer to be young. Thanks to people who had wished me on that day. I’m thankful to have you people as my friends. Thanks for the presents tooooooo. But don’t know why, I don’t feel the happiness for my birthday this year. But still thank you people for your wishes and presents again.
Hmmm. I had been thinking, am I brave or being stupid to do that. I don’t know but since this is it, I don’t want to think anymore. It’s pain me to see that it had become like this. Haha. Human being are weird, they tend to achieve the impossible, they like to cling on to things that are hard to get. That’s what I think. Haha.
What do you all think? Agreeee?
Hehehe. I miss 2pm, their new album will be out next month. I can’t wait.
I like BEAST, Bad girl. They’re hot, but I don’t really like MBLAQ, they abit 2pm look alike but I don’t want to talk bad abt them la. ^^
BEAST, hehehe. I like!
Down down we gotta get down, down down we gotta get down! (:
I like the first one that sing! ^^
Okay, but I like still like my 2pm moreeeeeeee.
Junhoooooooooooooooooo. (:
Okay till here, I’m going to play café world, my favourite game nowwwwwwwww. ^^
Goodnight people and take careeeeeeee.
(:
XOXO,
Brenda.
I love Lee Seung Gi.
Listening to him singing Will you marry me. Super super super melt my heart.
Everytime when I hear this song, my tears will be like falling down. The lyrics are so super sincere. (: But the thing is I don't believe in forever. Do you think there will be forever? Hah. Love him, when will find another him? Hah. I want to fall in love. ^^
Another song that I personally like by him.
I think it suit my mood more. Lol.
The lyrics again are super niceeeeeee. His voiceeeeeeee. *sigh* I’m okay, I’ll be. It is not the first, second or third time alr, it’s alright.
Love the lie lie lie lie part, he’s gorgeous in the music video uh.
(:
Hmmm, school sucks. I hate school but I still need to go to school. I hope the long holiday will be here again. I’m waiting patiently. This semester modules are okay but the lecturer cannot make it. Some of them , speak too fast, some speak unclearly, omg want to listen also cannot really understand. And also school is not as fun as last semester, it’s seem to be lacking of something. Like the class have no bonding anymore, that’s what I felt. *Sigh* It’s alright, I’m sure there is many activities coming up soooon. So let wait and seeeee.
Oh ya, my birthday had passssed. I’m seventeeeeeeeeeen. Hehehe. ^^ But I still prefer to be young. Thanks to people who had wished me on that day. I’m thankful to have you people as my friends. Thanks for the presents tooooooo. But don’t know why, I don’t feel the happiness for my birthday this year. But still thank you people for your wishes and presents again.
Hmmm. I had been thinking, am I brave or being stupid to do that. I don’t know but since this is it, I don’t want to think anymore. It’s pain me to see that it had become like this. Haha. Human being are weird, they tend to achieve the impossible, they like to cling on to things that are hard to get. That’s what I think. Haha.
What do you all think? Agreeee?
Hehehe. I miss 2pm, their new album will be out next month. I can’t wait.
I like BEAST, Bad girl. They’re hot, but I don’t really like MBLAQ, they abit 2pm look alike but I don’t want to talk bad abt them la. ^^
BEAST, hehehe. I like!
Down down we gotta get down, down down we gotta get down! (:
I like the first one that sing! ^^
Okay, but I like still like my 2pm moreeeeeeee.
Junhoooooooooooooooooo. (:
Okay till here, I’m going to play café world, my favourite game nowwwwwwwww. ^^
Goodnight people and take careeeeeeee.
(:
XOXO,
Brenda.
Friday, October 16, 2009
That's the last thing I can do.
I MISS JAEBEOM ALOT.
I MISS 2PM TOOOOO. Dream Season Two, Junho inside, so fit, made me highhhhhhhhhhh!~
Can't wait for their new album to be out!
Super super super busy this two weeks, so no time to post entry for you all to see. Sorry^^ But I'm now here posting alr. Had been working for this two weeks, and fyi I'm working now too but I see too much document alr, so so so so so tired of keying it into the system. Save meeeeeeeeeeee. Hahah. I had beeen missing alot on videosss. But I watch one or two episodes of 1 night 2 days every night and because of them, I slept happily every single night. They are super funnnny. Hehehehe. I'm crazy about those six boyssssss.
EunJiwon, MCMong, LeeSuGeun, LeeSeungGi, KimC and KangHoDong are loved by meeeeeee.
VARIETY SPIRIT, one of their favourite phrases! (: Invented by MCMong.
HAHAHA.
School is starting next weeeeeeeeeeek. Can you all feel my hatred for schoooool? :(
Please don't let the schoool to reopen. Please bombed the schoool away.
LOL. Till here, everyone.
And TMR is OCTOBER BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION with clique.
HAPPY HAPPPY.
xoxoxoxoxoxo,
Brenda.
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义无奈
我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽
-暧昧byRainie Yang.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
回憶是最可怕的敵人。
Whenever I see this video, I feeeel so so sad. But at least I can feel how much fans love him. ^^
Fighting, Park Jaebeom! Saranghae, I love you. *shy* LOL.
Hmmmmmmm, have been busy nowaday, but if you ask me busy with what. I don't know too.
Haha. Busy thinking abt my future, my goals and all sort of thinking. Should I quit poly and change to private school, local or oversea? In this way, I can get a degree after three years than a diploma. But giving up everything in poly? Will I regret it, I'm not so sure myself too.
Anyway went clique chalet and have lots of fun. Hehehe. ^^ I love them! Games, Jokes and Foods. Haha. Have lots of funnnnnnnnn. Having Oct Birthday Babies Birthday Celebration on 17Oct. Can't wait! (: Chloe, please improve on your skills kay. If not pair you up with another lousy one. ^^
Okay. Till here, I'll update soon.
XOXO,
Brenda.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
It's all too late now.
Hey peeeeeeeeps. Here I am, back from somewhereeeeeee, actually nowhereeeeeeeeee. Hahah. Okay, I'm currently rotting at home. And because of that, I will start to reflect on my life. What I found out is this few points. Firstly, I do not have a goal in life. Secondly, I am not putting much effort in studies. Thirdly, I should forget all the unhappy thingsssss.
It had been one week one day since I know about that. At first, I was pretty sad about it at first but in the end, I thought through. What am I to him, to want him to wait for me till I'm ready for relationship? I'm nothing, I realised. He had moved on and I am still there, thinking that time will wait for me. It was not his fault, it was mine, I know. I didn't tell him the reasons because I do not have the courage to but now I don't even think there is a need for him to know. I felt the pain, really, now I know how much pain I caused him. The most I can do now is to let him go and wish him well...
Enough of thoseeeeee.
I'm awaiting for your return, Park Jaebeom.
I missssssssss 2pm, well since all their activities had stop, no more new videos of them. Sad, you knowwwwww. But it's okay, I can use the time to catch up on super junior. Hahah. I feeel sad for Jaebeom, he must be feeeling terrible inside. With all the fans boycotted 2pm, he must had feeel that it is his fault to cause all this unpleasant things to happen. As much as I hope Jaebeom to be back in 2pm, I don't think it is a right thing to boycotted the group. What about the other 6 memebers? They neeed lot of support now and we fans, should support them, I believe Jaebeom wants this too. Let give Jaebeom a rest, when he comes back as solo, support him! I'm waiting for your return, Park Jaebeom. It would be the best if you return to 2pm. (:
Lee Junho of 2pm ^^
Lee Junho is soooooooooooo cute, I want subs for DREAM. He is insideeeeeeee. Heheheeeee. I'm still like Jaebeom, but while he is resting in seattle, I will like Junho in the meantimeeeeee. Hahaha. ^^
Went out with clique few days ago. Hahaha. Have a fun day! It was Benjamin Birthday!
Photos taken belowwwwwwwww.
I lazy upload all the photos here. I uploaded at facebook alr. Hehehe.
Clique chalet is coming in 2 dayssssssss. I can't wait, my lovely friendssssss.
Okay, I'll post till hereeee.
Will be back sooooon. Goodnight.
Lovesssss,
Brenda.
It had been one week one day since I know about that. At first, I was pretty sad about it at first but in the end, I thought through. What am I to him, to want him to wait for me till I'm ready for relationship? I'm nothing, I realised. He had moved on and I am still there, thinking that time will wait for me. It was not his fault, it was mine, I know. I didn't tell him the reasons because I do not have the courage to but now I don't even think there is a need for him to know. I felt the pain, really, now I know how much pain I caused him. The most I can do now is to let him go and wish him well...
Enough of thoseeeeee.
I'm awaiting for your return, Park Jaebeom.
I missssssssss 2pm, well since all their activities had stop, no more new videos of them. Sad, you knowwwwww. But it's okay, I can use the time to catch up on super junior. Hahah. I feeel sad for Jaebeom, he must be feeeling terrible inside. With all the fans boycotted 2pm, he must had feeel that it is his fault to cause all this unpleasant things to happen. As much as I hope Jaebeom to be back in 2pm, I don't think it is a right thing to boycotted the group. What about the other 6 memebers? They neeed lot of support now and we fans, should support them, I believe Jaebeom wants this too. Let give Jaebeom a rest, when he comes back as solo, support him! I'm waiting for your return, Park Jaebeom. It would be the best if you return to 2pm. (:
Lee Junho of 2pm ^^
Lee Junho is soooooooooooo cute, I want subs for DREAM. He is insideeeeeeee. Heheheeeee. I'm still like Jaebeom, but while he is resting in seattle, I will like Junho in the meantimeeeeee. Hahaha. ^^
Went out with clique few days ago. Hahaha. Have a fun day! It was Benjamin Birthday!
Photos taken belowwwwwwwww.
I lazy upload all the photos here. I uploaded at facebook alr. Hehehe.
Clique chalet is coming in 2 dayssssssss. I can't wait, my lovely friendssssss.
Okay, I'll post till hereeee.
Will be back sooooon. Goodnight.
Lovesssss,
Brenda.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
How can Jaebeom leave too? ><
I love the 2pm with Jay, I'm sure.
I'm back after being missing so long. Don't blame me uh, I don't know what am I suppose to blog. I don't what am I suppose to say. What a sad day for me today. Today, I just know Jaebeom left 2pm just because of what the netizen say about him. I'm angry with the netizien for digging out about the past and comment on him but I'm disappointed of him giving up so fast. 2pm will not be the same without him as the leader. He must be so sad in seattle now. :( I am sad too. For the past few weeks, I thought with Jaebeom around, I wouldnt think about the rest but now he left too, it seem like one by one things are leaving me...
How sad. Yes, I choose to run away from things because I don't have the courage, really I do not have.
But I'm sure I will be fine. I will be.
I'm keeping everything deep down my heart, don't want to rake it up, don't want to hurt anyone.
Some things I just don't know how to say it out loud. :(
Till here, bye.
Loves,
Brenda.
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