Can you feel my heartbeat?

Finally. Long waited music video came out. As usual, they are super my type of guys. But it's lack of something, Park Jaebeom presence. :( I want him inside, he make the group look more powerful since his popping is super attractive to my eyes. ^^
I seriously hope he will be back. I miss him badly.
*sigh* I'm moody now, super. ZZZZ

Goodnight, people.

Again and Again,
Brenda.
I'll not go anymore deeper because I know it's impossible.

(:

"You will move on when your heart finally understands that there is no turning back."

I was crazy about you.

JAY PARK ^^ SO CUTE!

MY BLOG SONG IS THE NEW 2PM SONG, 'I'm crazy about you'!
I hear it for like a thousand times alr and I simply loveeeeee it although without Jay is something to be sad of alot. I thought he will be back but now my hope of him coming back for 2pm first album are smashed when I see the album jacket without him. :( I want him backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, PLEASE.

The lyrics of the song are super sad.
She's gone, gone
She's gone, gone
She's gone, gone
She's gone, gone

You're standing up now, you throw aside my hands.
The words 'I love you' are still caught in my throat, I didn't even have a chance to greet you yet.
As I see your back turned towards me, the whole world feels like it's breaking down.
It's all breaking down.
All those days we loved, I was crazy for you.
I didn't even have a chance to say that, and I let you go.
She's getting further away.
Love can't be like this to me.
It's too hard, I'm tired, eventually I just let go.
The words "If you really loved me, you'd let me go"
I don't hear any of it.
The image of your back towards me is engraved into my eyes, It's all breaking down.
All those days we loved, I was crazy for you.
I didn't even have a chance to say that, and I let you go.
She's getting further away.
Love can't be like this to me.
{RAP}
I couldn't even say that you can't leave.
All I am is a fool that can only watch you leave.
Going crazier day by day, never being able to forget you.
I can't handle myself, I was crazy for you, I was crazy for you.
I didn't even have a chance to say that and I let you go.
She's getting further away.
Love can't be like this to me.

I just came back from a weekend trip from malacca. It sure had enlighten up my mood. But I don't want to come back to the reality, to face the truth. I want to live in my own world. It'll be better, I told myself. But I know deep down, it hasn't gotten better. After that night, you disappeared into the thin air. And after today, I'm telling myself I'll be strong and forget about everything. I do not want to see you anymore. I do not want to find you anymore. I do not want to miss you anymore. I do not want to go crazy about you anymore.
The end but will I be able to do it, me, myself not sure too.


Hahaha.
Okay, I shall post some pictures when my bro upload the photos from the camera uh.
I became tanned again!
YAY! So happy.
I don't want to go to school tmr. It is a torture to go to school. Got meeting after school, got company meeting for Annual Dance and Dinner after that, sure very late come back. :(
SO SAD. SO VERY SAD.
Haha.

Shall end hereeeee. Can't wait for 2PM to make comeback on Inkigayo next week!
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Loves,
BRENDA.

"We were given two hands to hold, two legs to walk, two eyes to see, two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else, for us to find."

Finally, second week of school had passed.

My actions are just helping me to escape from the reality.
Who is going to help me get back to the right track of life.
I wonder.
Goodnight, People.

Emotionally Tired,
Brenda.

"A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious; not wanting to give up, but your hands feel the pain. And, when you finally let go, you're free from any pain, but your hands are empty."

PARK JAEBEOM ^^

OMG. I MUST POST TODAY.
PARK JAEBEOM APPEARED IN MY DREAM LAST NIGHT.
OMG OMG OMG. No wonder, I'm feeling so great today. Hahahah.
Jaebeom, you made my day.
But it is because I missed you too much.
I hope you consider coming back as 2pm leader.
:( Saranghae, Jaebeom.

Lovessssssss,
Brenda.

I can't feel anything, anymore.

Let start with the post with a song I'm listening to now.



I love Lee Seung Gi.
Listening to him singing Will you marry me. Super super super melt my heart.
Everytime when I hear this song, my tears will be like falling down. The lyrics are so super sincere. (: But the thing is I don't believe in forever. Do you think there will be forever? Hah. Love him, when will find another him? Hah. I want to fall in love. ^^

Another song that I personally like by him.
I think it suit my mood more. Lol.


The lyrics again are super niceeeeeee. His voiceeeeeeee. *sigh* I’m okay, I’ll be. It is not the first, second or third time alr, it’s alright.
Love the lie lie lie lie part, he’s gorgeous in the music video uh.
(:

Hmmm, school sucks. I hate school but I still need to go to school. I hope the long holiday will be here again. I’m waiting patiently. This semester modules are okay but the lecturer cannot make it. Some of them , speak too fast, some speak unclearly, omg want to listen also cannot really understand. And also school is not as fun as last semester, it’s seem to be lacking of something. Like the class have no bonding anymore, that’s what I felt. *Sigh* It’s alright, I’m sure there is many activities coming up soooon. So let wait and seeeee.

Oh ya, my birthday had passssed. I’m seventeeeeeeeeeen. Hehehe. ^^ But I still prefer to be young. Thanks to people who had wished me on that day. I’m thankful to have you people as my friends. Thanks for the presents tooooooo. But don’t know why, I don’t feel the happiness for my birthday this year. But still thank you people for your wishes and presents again.

Hmmm. I had been thinking, am I brave or being stupid to do that. I don’t know but since this is it, I don’t want to think anymore. It’s pain me to see that it had become like this. Haha. Human being are weird, they tend to achieve the impossible, they like to cling on to things that are hard to get. That’s what I think. Haha.
What do you all think? Agreeee?

Hehehe. I miss 2pm, their new album will be out next month. I can’t wait.
I like BEAST, Bad girl. They’re hot, but I don’t really like MBLAQ, they abit 2pm look alike but I don’t want to talk bad abt them la. ^^
BEAST, hehehe. I like!



Down down we gotta get down, down down we gotta get down! (:
I like the first one that sing! ^^
Okay, but I like still like my 2pm moreeeeeeee.
Junhoooooooooooooooooo. (:

Okay till here, I’m going to play café world, my favourite game nowwwwwwwww. ^^
Goodnight people and take careeeeeeee.
(:

XOXO,
Brenda.

That's the last thing I can do.

I MISS JAEBEOM ALOT.

I MISS 2PM TOOOOO. Dream Season Two, Junho inside, so fit, made me highhhhhhhhhhh!~
Can't wait for their new album to be out!

Super super super busy this two weeks, so no time to post entry for you all to see. Sorry^^ But I'm now here posting alr. Had been working for this two weeks, and fyi I'm working now too but I see too much document alr, so so so so so tired of keying it into the system. Save meeeeeeeeeeee. Hahah. I had beeen missing alot on videosss. But I watch one or two episodes of 1 night 2 days every night and because of them, I slept happily every single night. They are super funnnny. Hehehehe. I'm crazy about those six boyssssss.



EunJiwon, MCMong, LeeSuGeun, LeeSeungGi, KimC and KangHoDong are loved by meeeeeee.


VARIETY SPIRIT, one of their favourite phrases! (: Invented by MCMong.

HAHAHA.

School is starting next weeeeeeeeeeek. Can you all feel my hatred for schoooool? :(
Please don't let the schoool to reopen. Please bombed the schoool away.
LOL. Till here, everyone.

And TMR is OCTOBER BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION with clique.
HAPPY HAPPPY.

xoxoxoxoxoxo,
Brenda.

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义无奈
我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽

-暧昧byRainie Yang.