Stupid in Love

I am angry plus upset plus disappointed plus whatever feelings I am having now.

I feel like you are treating me like a joke now. 

Knowing that I'm already upset with you yet you got yourself drunk.

I'm awake waiting for you to reply me yet you are ignoring me.

This is stupid, I swear I will make you pay back for what you have done to me tonight. 

But what is stupid is I'm still worry for you.

I'm a fool that afraid to lose you. 

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you 

And I hate myself for wasting my tears for you.

I hate myself for acting like this. I hate myself for depending too much on you. I hate myself for thinking that I can't live without you. I hate myself for being like this when you are enjoying your time now.

 For the first time, I really hate myself for loving you. 

If only I got the power to make time stop.........

Have you ever fear of losing what you love?

I'm always having this fear, maybe it's because I tend to always lose what I love.

I tried my best to forget about the past, but after some times, it will sure come back and haunt me.

why why why why why why :(

I feel so stupid, like a loser. Does the problem lies on me? Or it just meant to be this way.

SIGH. DONT THINK SO MUCH BRENDA!!!!

...........I want time to stop here and it'll be on replay.

paranoidgirl92

Don't even know what I'm thinking, what I want and why am I doing this.

Someone tell me? :(  I guess nobody can.

非常幸福的我

谢谢你, (:

Life is such a joke.

How much I wish to vent it out, I can't seem to type it out.

Pissed, but who to be pissed at?

I don't know.

I would just keep smiling so I don't need to explain why I'm not okay.

Choices.

Have you ever thought of the different between these two choices?

1st: You want to because you need to,

OR

2nd: You need to because you want to.

Sometime, people are confused of whether they need to or they want to and I was one of them.

Why are we confused? It is because of the reasons behind it.

People choose because they want to be happier. But is that what you really want?

But whatever is it, do not regret with what you had chosen.

It is not easy to get over regrets. Maybe you will never get over it too.

Yes, emotional again. Goodnight my dearest readers.

I need energy for this weekend.

BLISSFUL LIFE.

HELLO PEOPLE.

I'm blogging because I got nothing while waiting for my freaking thick hair to dry!

MY INTERNSHIP HAD FINALLY COME TO AN END.

Freaking happy, but I'm extending earning more money to SAVE. Ya right, save.

Been spending and spending and spending, just by going to Disney On Ice, made me spend ard $100? Tickets plus all the cute cups they selling. I can't resist not to buy!

Just when I got the mood to blog, my laptop want to die on me, and I'm lazy to get my charger, because once I charged my laptop means watching of gossip girl = no sleep =DARK EYE CIRCLES.

SO I SHALL GET TO SLEEP NOW. GOODNIGHT PEOPLE.

I will update my blog often, I promise but I bet nobody look at my blog.

ROFL.

HELLO HELLO HELLO

It had been such a long time, long time no see, BLOG.

* Acting Crazy *

I had changed my blog song to a song that I LOVE currently. It's on replay in my ears.

I LOVE THE LYRICS. This is the song that motivate me in the first place to be brave too.

" 我们都怕痛 但又好想试着牵手

两颗心 隐藏在背后 不敢承诺

不想再难过 丢弃回忆重新来过

让我永远牵着你 把手给我"

Time flies so fast, too fast. My attachment is ending soon. Yes, my 6 months attachment is actually ending soon. To think that I keep whining and whining about it. Now, I'm left with no more than 5 weeks. And it scare the hell out of me because I'm going to be a year 3 student. And I got no goals, no clear future of what to do. I really need to start thinking and planning. :( I don't want to grow up. I want to be little girl, can?

Suddenly, I miss Langkawi, miss that place, miss those fun, miss the sun, miss the sea, miss those water sport. HAHA I was browsing through the photos, then came across the pictures we took there, then got this feeling. I WANT TO GO ON A VACATION, PRETTY PLEASE.

I JUST GO AND DREAM ABOUT IT NOW, GOODNIGHT.

HAHA. I just want to end this post now. Becauseeeeeeeeee baby boy just texted me. I'm busy already. BYE BYE.