Stupid in Love

I am angry plus upset plus disappointed plus whatever feelings I am having now.

I feel like you are treating me like a joke now. 

Knowing that I'm already upset with you yet you got yourself drunk.

I'm awake waiting for you to reply me yet you are ignoring me.

This is stupid, I swear I will make you pay back for what you have done to me tonight. 

But what is stupid is I'm still worry for you.

I'm a fool that afraid to lose you. 

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you 

And I hate myself for wasting my tears for you.

I hate myself for acting like this. I hate myself for depending too much on you. I hate myself for thinking that I can't live without you. I hate myself for being like this when you are enjoying your time now.

 For the first time, I really hate myself for loving you.