2013.

It been more than a year that I had last update my blog.

Muhahahahah, many many things happened.

But all good things of course!

Suddenly got the feel to update my blog again.

I've been living my life to the fullest.

Although not doing what I really love but before really doing what interest me, I need to have a back up plan so yes, working plus part time studying for my degree qualifications. 

People often ask me " Not tired? Working and studying at the same time. "

To say the truth if I say it is not tiring then I must be superwoman. However what I can say is at least say is if you have the will, everything is possible.

Of course, with the support of my dearest boyfriend and family members.

YES, HERE I AM HALF WAY THROUGH~

(: 

Till here, people~ ❤

2012.

It must be my imagination that you are treating me cold, it must be.

I just realised that I had spent the last 365 days with you.

2011 was a happy year for me because you are always there for me, hopefully same goes to you too. 

Hope 2012 will be another year full of joy for us.

I love you.

Happy New Year, everyone.

Stupid in Love

I am angry plus upset plus disappointed plus whatever feelings I am having now.

I feel like you are treating me like a joke now. 

Knowing that I'm already upset with you yet you got yourself drunk.

I'm awake waiting for you to reply me yet you are ignoring me.

This is stupid, I swear I will make you pay back for what you have done to me tonight. 

But what is stupid is I'm still worry for you.

I'm a fool that afraid to lose you. 

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you 

And I hate myself for wasting my tears for you.

I hate myself for acting like this. I hate myself for depending too much on you. I hate myself for thinking that I can't live without you. I hate myself for being like this when you are enjoying your time now.

 For the first time, I really hate myself for loving you. 

If only I got the power to make time stop.........

Have you ever fear of losing what you love?

I'm always having this fear, maybe it's because I tend to always lose what I love.

I tried my best to forget about the past, but after some times, it will sure come back and haunt me.

why why why why why why :(

I feel so stupid, like a loser. Does the problem lies on me? Or it just meant to be this way.

SIGH. DONT THINK SO MUCH BRENDA!!!!

...........I want time to stop here and it'll be on replay.

paranoidgirl92

Don't even know what I'm thinking, what I want and why am I doing this.

Someone tell me? :(  I guess nobody can.

非常幸福的我

谢谢你, (:

Life is such a joke.

How much I wish to vent it out, I can't seem to type it out.

Pissed, but who to be pissed at?

I don't know.

I would just keep smiling so I don't need to explain why I'm not okay.