2014.

Another year gone by again, seem pretty quick yeah.
I got the feel to get back into blogging again. 

Into my last module of degree, can't wait to get over and done with! It seem rather too long already, the money and time spend on it, sometime I wonder whether it's worth the effort put in not.
What are the goals I'm chasing in life? 

It's seem that the older you grow, the more headaches you get.
I'm lucky to have a dream job with lots of opportunity to learn and grow.

This year seem pretty special having spend 4 years and counting together with the boy.
I just want to let him know how much I appreciated his effort in earning more money so get move to the next phrase of our life together. On the other hand, seeing him working so hard from morn to night and at the same time doing part time studies make me feel damn horrible. To think that I still throw tantrum when he cannot meet me often due to his packed schedule. Can anyone tell me how to grow up and learn how to control your emotions?

Still learning how to become a mature adult/ woman :/

2013.

It been more than a year that I had last update my blog.

Muhahahahah, many many things happened.

But all good things of course!

Suddenly got the feel to update my blog again.

I've been living my life to the fullest.

Although not doing what I really love but before really doing what interest me, I need to have a back up plan so yes, working plus part time studying for my degree qualifications. 

People often ask me " Not tired? Working and studying at the same time. "

To say the truth if I say it is not tiring then I must be superwoman. However what I can say is at least say is if you have the will, everything is possible.

Of course, with the support of my dearest boyfriend and family members.

YES, HERE I AM HALF WAY THROUGH~

(: 

Till here, people~ ❤

2012.

It must be my imagination that you are treating me cold, it must be.

I just realised that I had spent the last 365 days with you.

2011 was a happy year for me because you are always there for me, hopefully same goes to you too. 

Hope 2012 will be another year full of joy for us.

I love you.

Happy New Year, everyone.

Stupid in Love

I am angry plus upset plus disappointed plus whatever feelings I am having now.

I feel like you are treating me like a joke now. 

Knowing that I'm already upset with you yet you got yourself drunk.

I'm awake waiting for you to reply me yet you are ignoring me.

This is stupid, I swear I will make you pay back for what you have done to me tonight. 

But what is stupid is I'm still worry for you.

I'm a fool that afraid to lose you. 

I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you 

And I hate myself for wasting my tears for you.

I hate myself for acting like this. I hate myself for depending too much on you. I hate myself for thinking that I can't live without you. I hate myself for being like this when you are enjoying your time now.

 For the first time, I really hate myself for loving you. 

If only I got the power to make time stop.........

Have you ever fear of losing what you love?

I'm always having this fear, maybe it's because I tend to always lose what I love.

I tried my best to forget about the past, but after some times, it will sure come back and haunt me.

why why why why why why :(

I feel so stupid, like a loser. Does the problem lies on me? Or it just meant to be this way.

SIGH. DONT THINK SO MUCH BRENDA!!!!

...........I want time to stop here and it'll be on replay.

paranoidgirl92

Don't even know what I'm thinking, what I want and why am I doing this.

Someone tell me? :(  I guess nobody can.

非常幸福的我

谢谢你, (: