I know I'm running away from it.

Already Gone- Kelly Clarkson.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high, yeah
It never would've worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you
Now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another that doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn't matter where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
and I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
I'm already gone
Already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone
Already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone.

Awww, the lyrics made me feel so sad. :(
This few days, keep listening to this song.

Okay, today is the day I have waited for so long alr. No more papers! I'm so happy happy happy! Hahahahahahaha. I cannot use words to express the feeling of mine now. Hmmm, out of the five papers, I only have one paper that I am less confident which is the last paper, navigation safety. *sigh* Hopes I won't get 50 marks again for it. Hahaha. Now, is vacation! But I don't know what to do. Play, enjoy life or find jobs. Two options, but I am lazy lazy lazy but I'm broke broke broke. Hahaha. I'm so lame tonight, but although my mindset is hyper, my body feel like it is going to break down anytime, no matter how much I sleep, I still feel exhausted. Must be something wrong with the head of mine. Lol. Now, I'm catching up with my 1night2days, so funnnnny and I love Eun Jiwon and the mind of his, what he is thinking is so unique. *Laugh Out Loud*
I feel that I'm becoming so emotional. -.- I hope to meet up with my 2 girlfriends soon. I hope to meet up with my clique soon. I hope that polymates will overcome the problem and be like last time. (: Really hope people out there will be living their life to the fullest and not wasting them.
Okay, like I say, emotional. I can't stand myself so I am ending here alr.
Oh ya, Monday out with J and Eve. And J made something for me, so excitied and touched by it.
Goodnight, my loveable readers.

With lots of lovesssss,
Brenda.

I was hoping you will know.

Eun Jiwon - Adiós ♥

I'm so hooked on One Night Two Days! Wees. And this song was sang by one of the cast inside!
Hahahah. The one with specs. Cute uh.
Why Baby Why~
Lol. I'm suppose to study now. I sneaked out of studying world to come here to post! So I'm going back. Enjoy the video above!

XOXO,
Brenda.

No matter how hard I try, it wouldn't be the same anymore.

Love is Punishment- K.Will. (Shinning Inheritance)
Perhaps if I have never encountered you, it would have been the best
If I had need been living in another world
If I had need to become strangers in life
It will not have been left with this inflicting pain in my heart
Each day & each day forgetting you
Each day & each day abandoned you
In the midst of my heart deeply concealing something that I cant really openly shout about of my love
It seems all along I have always thought that love was bliss & happiness
Unable to beyond words that love is heavens render punishment
I just have to love you & my heart will shiver & tremble
This is just living by wiping off tears
My mind I have already forgotten you
My speech I have already forgotten you
Occasionally drinking to drunken stupor
But afraid that I will utter my love for you
Really fear thatIt seems all along
I have always thought that love was bliss & happiness
Unable to beyond words that love is heavens render punishment
I just have to love you & my heart will shiver & tremble
This is just living by wiping off tears
Dream will I able to love you?
Crying & weeping to my sleep
Awake, each day return to that of the former
Love is to love you
When you arent around, stealing mutter to say i love you
Afraid that when you heard that, you will run away
Obscure silence inadvertently in loving you

♥Love the drama, the song lyrics and the video too.

I am studying like hell now. My head, eyes and heart are hurting like hell. I'm stressed, will I be able to make it, me myself is not very sure too. Hah. Shall just try my best.
This few days, I realised alot from things that had happened. You will just need to forgive, forget and move on with it. In life, there is no turning back so there is no use regretting too. My head telling me this but I do not know why my heart is hurting like mad. :(
I am just writing my feeling out since there is nothing I can do about it, so there is not a need to ask me what happened ya.
Till here, everyone.

Loves,
Brenda.

It wasn't easy for me too.

Omg. I love this picture!
Isn't Jaebeom hot? ^^

Hmmm, I am feeling rather bored, doing Accounting Project now so I'm here to post. Hahah. I didn't know is 4pm in the afternoon alr. Wow, time is passing so fast that I got no time to do other things. I want to go out but I'm stuck at home finishing up projects and studying for upcoming exams. *sigh* But I got totally no mood to do anything. I don't why tooooo. I can't wait for vacation to come. But I must buck up for my exams first before enjoying. That's how life is. This few days, feeling rather random but who will be there to listen to me? Everyone seem to have their own troubles and I don't want to add into them anymore. Hmmm, time table for exams are out, 17Aug will be the first paper which is ard less than 10 days before exams are coming. This time round, I got 5 papers to study, wish my luck! And worst of all, the time table is the same again, meaning I will be like having logistic and seamanship exams on the same day, meaning I will rmb logistic but cannot rmb for seamanship, then I will fail again! Shit, then must retake seamanship, then must jump jetty jump again. Oh no, I don't want that to happen. I will kill myself if that happens! No more youtube till after exams for me! I'm like controlling can, the fast few days, I only watch one of their video, the rest were spending on projects. I stayed back for the past few days for projects, and I must say I'm disappointed that most of them didn't even ask how are the project going on and so on. *sigh*
Anyway, I had changed my blog song to 不屑by黃鴻升(小鬼)! It is his new song, hehehe!
Part of the lyrics are here:
事情如果那麽簡單那就好了，
想讓自己不，
瞬間就通通消滅。
人類如果沒有心臟那就好了，
受傷不會流血，悲傷也不會流淚。
不需要有同類傳染頹廢，
不需要愚昧的尊嚴，
不需要去偷竊你的思念，
自我安慰。
就讓我僞裝我嘴角不屑，
讓孤獨乘以更孤獨的兩倍，
允許我保留我最後一點點特權，
赦免我想念你的心碎。
如果我眼神裏閃爍不屑，
可能我心裏一半已經殘廢。
那一半跟著你走遠了的那一天，
這一半漸漸地瓦解。。。
Till here, everyone.
Take care and study hard! Fighting!~

With lots of lovessssss,
Brenda.

断了的弦- 周杰伦

断了的弦再怎么连,
我的感觉你你已听不见.
你的转变像断掉的弦,
再怎么接应都不对,
你的改变我能够分辨.
我沉默,你的话也不多,
我们之间笑着什么不说.
*sigh*

Goodnight, everyone.

Too late,
Brenda.

Just like this, I'm alr contented.

Project is killing me, seriously.
Today was actually a bad day for me but now I guess not really alr.
It had been so long...
Hehehe.
I hope I will finish my project soon. After that, I am going to start studying for exams.
Goodnight, my friends. My eyes are seriously closing. Hahah.

Loves,
Brenda.

You aren't the same anymore.

Jaebeom is loved by me. ♥

I'm in school, just finished my sausage egg muffin meal! So full~
So I guess I will not be eating my lunch. Hahah. Met Joel Low in the morning today!
Hahahah. So long never see until him le! Happppy Happpppy. He grown like taller again. *sigh* Why am I not growing taller? Hahahah.
Okay, till here. Project dicussion, I hate project and I'm abit pissed off by him! -.-
Byeeeeeeeee!

XOXO,
Brenda.
Will the past return? I'm still rmb the first time I met you.
It seem so ytd though. :/

Only you - 2pm!

TRANSLATION OF THE SONG.
I love the lyrics of this song(:

Only you, if it's not you, I can't be fixed.
I wouldn't be able to breathe again,
It's only you my baby it's only you.

Why can't I let go of the memories that have already ended?
Why do I keep holding onto them alone?
After letting that person left me, go, I live a new life.
Oh~ I know it too, that it's the way it should be, I know it too.

Though I couldn't bring myself to believe it the first month,
After nothing but crying for the second month.
And on the third month, holding onto my whole heart,
I tried to meet other people.
But I couldn't bring myself to smile.

Only you, only you can bring me to life.
I can't stop these tears,
So just come and return to me.
Only you, if it's not you, I can't be fixed.
I can't bring myself to smile again,
it's only you my baby it's only you.

Listen, You were really beautiful. When you smiled, I was blinded by the light.
To that bright smile, I lost track of all thought.
Oh~ miss you baby, I really miss you so much.

No can understand me, and also as of now,
why to this day I still have a deep attachment to you.
Oh~ though they don't get it, you have known it.

Its only you my baby its only you baby,
only you, only you can bring me to life.
I can't stop these tears,
So just come and return to me.
Only you, if it's not you, I can't be fixed.
I can't bring myself to smile again,
it's only you my baby it's only you.

Yo, I tried to forget you but,
no matter how hard I tried, I keep finding myself looking for you.
And even until now, I keep remembering that bright smile.
Isn't it pitiful, how did it come to be this way?
I'm unable to quite forget everything altogether,
There continues to exist an empty spot that refuses to be filled,
It can only be filled by you.

Its only you my baby its only you yeah~
Only you, only you can bring me to life,
I can't stop these tears,
So just come and return to me.
Only you, if it's not you, I can't be fixed.
I can't bring myself to smile again,
it's only you my baby it's only you yeah~

Are you doing okay? I'm not doing well, I need you.

With lots of love,
Brenda.
P.S Jaebeom is the one wearing pink shirt!
XOXO.